​The truth of the journey

​The truth of the journey is this...

The truth is nothing in my life has turned out the way I hoped or expected.

Nothing has happened when I wanted it or in the way I wanted it.

I dream big dreams and they don't come true... haven't come true.

My schedule has never worked, nor has my planning.
Am I complaining or bemoaning? No. Not at all. I am stating fact.

Now, let me add this: Thank God.

Thank God none of this has happened. It has all been for the best. It has been according to His purpose and timing. To Him be all glory, honor, and praise.

Rather than get frustrated, freak out, feel anxious or have anxious thoughts, I am learning how Father God really does know best. His timing and plans are perfect, eternal, and far surpass mine. So, I go with the flow, try to not swim upstream, and try to allow God to have His way with me and my life. After all, hitting my head against the wall, throwing a temper tantrum, or feeling sad when things do not work out has never helped me or the situation.

This lesson has not come easy.

It's taken forty years of wrestling with God to get to this point and learn this lesson (and apply it).

I have learned I have no control, and frankly, do not want it. If I take the wheel, I make a mess of things and go the wrong way. I also fail to look around and enjoy the scenery and the moment.

This blog journal is my story and how I have gotten to this point, how I give thanks today, and want to count my blessings tomorrow. I want to be a blessings counter. This is how I want to live my life and enjoy wherever, whenever God leads.

I have learned that I need to do something so I keep myself from trying to take the wheel. Giving thanks and counting my blessings is what I do instead, and it has sure made things easier and far more enjoyable. After all, my life is not mine or about me. It is about Him. He allows me to live today for a reason. Counting my blessings is the key. The more I count, the more I see and hear God, and the sweeter of a journey He takes me.

Letting go and allowing God does not make for an easy journey, but is sure a blessed one, provided I look for the blessings and remember to count them. I try to take nothing and no one for granted.